Not sure since when.. perhaps long ago..
Mood and emotions are unpredictable.. very often i feel down..
I wish that im happier..
I want to be different.. but actually im a loser..

Am i too practical?
Or am i too lazy?
Can i have my happiness without going through hardships???

At Dayward this week.. 1st week of Aug..
Again.. JCI sweep.. environmental sweep..
No one do e expiry check on e July.. y izz my fault lei? *weird*

Rushed to admit daycase pts.. plan to check whole e-trolley & glucometer after..
Well,we r responsible for e machine faulty.. it should be check before pt arrive.. i noe~
In e ward, it is assign to check E-trolley at 2pm.. what if there is a patient collasped in e morning can't they use the e-trolley!?
Angio E-trolley check wasn't done before cases started even..
R we to be blamed even JCI sweep? *weird*

Ppl who opened the GTN or Insulin always never bother to date..
When i found out not dated.. i dated them.. accidentally dated wrongly..
Again, ppl screamed "OMG" straight infront my face.. I'm to be blamed again..

So fustrated.. but i cannot vent out..
If not, i appears to be defensive, stuborn or emotional again?!

Tues..
Really no choice to show BLACK face..
NO proper communication of handover.. even though only 4 Angio(s)!
Again... i appears to be over-emotional again?!

Probably,true enough..
Assignment make me feel so stressed & irritatable..
Then again, I just have to blame myself for being so stupid dunno how to do assignment..

HAIZ... HAIZ... HAIZ...

Excited chaos at work today..
All "HIGH" about ah ping's future.. -_-"

Attended a Philips Workshop at Raffles Convention on Wed..
Went down after Swensens Lunch Treat from Dr. Lim IH..
Last minute decision for me to go down..

Simple workshop trip turn out something "Shocking" in my life!
Really wanted to hide somewhere..

A friendly Philips guy came to host us..
Suddenly,Sharon suggest e guy to get my contact no.?!
My face turned white & my mind went blank?!
And e guy really went to retrieve his Hp & got down my contact no. ..
And Sharon keep trying to do funny things.. end i took a pic w him..
Bernice & Yenyen get to see him in Yanjun 3G Hp..
Really cannot underestimate Sharon..

E guy really msg me in e night.. called me.. we chat for awhile..
Im kinda surprised.. he sounds so ... ... over e Hp..
Well,im neutral towards him.. well,just do not understand y is me???
He flew back KL..
I didnt receive any msgs from him anymore..
Well,hope everything will be peaceful..

He is quite a capable guy..
Only 28 to reach his job position..
Well,i guess i just want to continue to be myself..
Just feel.. im not e one he is looking for.. y wasting time anyway..