Will be on AL on Thurs and Fri..
Attending classes..
Finished e pre-course assignment.. i do not wish to change everything again..
Maybe Im stuborn.. but im just too tired..

Headache.. took Anarex just now.. took a nap..
Sore throat.. try my best to drink more H2O..
Mood is down.. cry quite alot lately.. no appetite..

Monday.. never eat/drink anything until i reached home for dinner..
Tuesday.. had rice for lunch.. small 叉烧包 for dinner..
Maybe take this chance to lose some weight?! *hee*

I happy to work at Dayward.. escape & live in my own world..
But Sunjing came over to Dayward today..
She just want to set IV plug only?!
Collect property halfway.. no where to be seen?
Only luvs to talk & talk..
Always thinks that whatever she do is perfect..
Just find her irritating..
I also need to practice my cannulation skill.. izz wrong?

Yanjun make me confused..
Sometimes show attitude to me.. sometimes still talk alittle to me whenever necessary..
心病。。。如何医??
我只知道。。。我的心好伤。。。

I brokedown again..
Finally no more guessing game..
From Liyi.. i got to know.. im the cause of yanjun's depressedness..
Feels guilty and hurt..
How am i going to face her..
I know i musnt give her anymore troubles.. i must try to control my emotions..
Why am i so stupid..
Why did i allows silly issues to affect me again & again.. hurt her again & again..
I hope she is willing to sit down and talk to me when she is ready..
I hope this friendship can be savage..

Im truly sorry..
Didnt mean to hurt yanjun.. unintentionally i did..
I just hope someone can understand my frustrations.. support me..
Yanjun telling me that I need to change..
Guess i have also reached my limits.. tired to change yet no positive outcomes..
Am i really that stuborn?
Trying hard to stand up after setbacks.. maybe i do not deserve support anymore..
Im sad not becoz of the nasty ppl out there.. but y didnt she understand me..
No matter how much i teared.. i tried.. maybe is too late now..
Right now.. how i wish i can die..
Im useless to escape.. but i think i really need to..

Created this blog..
I want..
The truth.. my feelings.. my frustrations..